Friday, March 18, 2011

The truth was I felt safe.

Dear Old Me,

It may be too soon to tell, but I think this time is special. I met a guy... you met a guy. And I think it might be special. I am not sure how, but I feel electricity. Maybe it is just another chance to learn and grow. A chance to spread my wings and see how far I can fly. But whatever it is it feels good. There is something different. I know I am different, but there is something very different about this.

He asked me if he made me nervous. The truth was I felt safe. For the first time in my life... I felt safe with a man and honestly more amazing than anything I felt safe. Period. I did not feel insecure. I knew I had something to bring to the table. I did not feel afraid because I felt his hand at the small of my back, instead I felt secure like I could fall back and I knew he would catch me. I did not feel like I was settling. I felt like I had met an equal. His smile and kind eyes mirrored mine and I was not afraid to hold his gaze. I did not feel like I was out of my league nor did I feel like he was out of mine. I did not feel like I had to prove a thing or pretend to be anyone but me, just me and he thought I was perfect, adorable even. And he told me he thought so. I was not afraid to speak my mind and when I did he laughed and I knew he understood me. I was just me. And I felt safe. I have never felt safe. I have never felt like I was justified to be right in the moment. But there with him, I felt right. I felt in the moment and I felt safe.

Could this really be happening? Maybe. I am just going to enjoy the moment and I am going to make sure I  thank him for making me feel safe.

Until Next Time,

The New You


  1. My hubs is my second..and he sound very much like your young man..kind and thoughtful. Great good wishes for you ..may you know the love and shelter of a good person in your life!
    Oh, there's a song by my neighbors sister I put on FB..her name is Mindy Gledhill and the song "Anchor" is prfect for how you are feeling (I dare to know how you are feeling,right?) ANyway..listed to the lyrics....

  2. I know several people who have had horrible (or maybe not horrible, but not very good) first marriages only to find their “Prince Charming” on the second go-round. My mom and one of my sisters were both in horrible first marriages and both found absolutely wonderful men who are strong, caring, loving, compassionate, patient and everything a woman could ever need or want in a husband. They give me hope that those kind of men do exist and if open myself up to that kind of love than I might actually find it. Here’s to good men!!!